Everyday by Megan Wertzbar Oct 7, 2010

Everyday

I tried to remember all the things you said
Recalling every memory in my brain
Picking at everything inside my head
Though I couldn't for it was a pain
Everyday the words you said hurt me
I was so broken and alone
I was so shaken, why couldn't you see?
I felt as though I couldn't think on my own
But I'm getting better everyday
I'm working on believing again
I'm finding my own way
Eventually, when you ask, I'll tell you how good I've been
I'm getting back to the way I used to be
Where I could actually trust, actually believe

Update: August 7th 2010

Okay, I haven't blogged in a while. I've been quite the busy girl.

A week ago I attended IMTA in New York City where I was in 9 different competitions and attended seminars with acting coaches, directors, agents, and managers. I met toooons of amazing people, some of whom I'm positive I'm going to stay in touch with for a very long time. I made some great friends. Too bad they all live in Illinois :o

Last week was my last band camp. My senior year. I cried. Of course. I guess I really am an emotional person. Haha. There's sooo much I could say about it though. It was an amazing experience and I'm glad that I got to do it. My band director is one of the best teachers I've ever had. He's pretty freaking cool ^_^

I can't believe that my senior year is here already. I still feel like I'm going into my sophomore year, but instead I'm going into my last year. As of right now my plans are to move to New York City to attend NYCDA, the New York Conservatory for Dramatic Arts. It's all acting classes, which means I won't have to take any of those boring "basic" classes :D Yay!

Thanks for reading. I'm sure I'll have more to write later :)

Guten tag!

~Megan

PS, I'd like to wish my mother and grandmother a happy belated birthday & my step-sister a happy birthday (it's today!)

<3

April 10 2010

Hey people! It's 3:30 in the morning and I'm super bored. I really should be going to sleep, but I'm way too excited because Avery is finally back in Michigan. I am continually smiling. Now I just have to wait until Sunday when Miss Lynnie gets back from Tex-Ass. :]]

On Monday I leave to go to sixth grade camp with the Northeast sixth graders. I'mma be a cabin leader again! Woot! I'm very excited. I went last year and had a really good time, and hopefully this time is just as amazing :]

This week I found a car that I'm purchasing. It's a 1993 BMW 325i. It's got a green exterior with a beige leather interior. Automatic. Airbags. Sunroof. The whole works. For a great price too! :D

So yeah, there's an update of my life.
Lots of love,
Megan
<3

April 3 2010

Hello blog readers, although I doubt that I have many...

Today is the second day of spring break and I got to go see The Last Song with my best friend, Amber, and my cousin, Courtney.

I decided that I really miss my boyfriend.

(He left me for Mexico this morning)

He doesn't have cellphone service apparently.

Sadness :'(

Oh well, I'mma get over it.

Hmm..what else to write about..

Tomorrow is Amber's 17th birthday! :)

Uhm..hmm...

I guess that's it.

I really miss my boyfriend.

The End.

March 21st 2010

Okay so I was thinking yesterday and I have a few choice words about society that I think should be heard. They're a little weird, but hey, this is a blog. I'm supposed to speak my mind right?

Firstly, who says that interracial relationships are bad? My boyfriend is mixed and I'm white as a freaking ghost. I honestly don't even realize that he's a totally different color than I am. It makes me so upset when people are like "I can't believe you guys are dating." or.. "He needs a black girl." They sound ridiculous. Seriously guys, it's just a color. Get the fuck over it and get on with your miserable lives.

Secondly! I know this is gonna sound like I'm some freak but who says that sex in public is bad? I'll tell you who. Society. The only reason we think that sex in public is bad is because that's how we've been taught. If you look at animals, like dogs for example, do they care that they're humping left and right in public? Hell no. It's because they weren't told that they shouldn't do it. It's a part of nature. Bahahha.

Thirdly, all of the girls who are like "I'm engaged!" when they've only been dating for a month or two, get a fucking life! I'm sorry but it takes a lot more than "I love you" to be that emotionally and mentally ready for a lifelong commitment. I'm not just saying this to be bitter or whatever. I've been there and I've done that. You just look childish and naive when you say stuff like that. I mean c'mon people.

Fourthly, some of you girls really need to stop posting your whole fucking life story on facebook and myspace! I don't care if you and you're boyfriend are constantly fighting or if you really just wanna kill your dad, and I'm pretty damn sure nobody else cares either. Keep that stuff to yourself. Again, you look childish and naive.

So I'm done with that for right now.

Happy Spring everyone! :)

March 14th 2010

Hey there people. It's been a while..again. I had my second weekend of training for IMTA this weekend. It was loads of fun :)

I am really excited to say that my 2nd trimester of my junior year is done! :D

Avery and I are still together. Going on 4 months really soon. Weird right? :)

Um, lemme think of what else to put...

I can't really think of anything xD

Anyways, I guess I'll talk to you later!

Feb. 28th 2010

I haven't blogged in a while so I thought that I'd share a little bit of what's going on in my life.
On November 30th I started dating Avery. I could go on and on for hours about him and it wouldn't even begin to sum up my feelings for him. My family, or at least my sister, likes him :D by the way (as Amber puts it) he's black. Or mixed that is..family issues? Nahh.


Anyways! I recently got accepted into IMTA which is the International Modeling and Talent Association. I will be going to New York City in July for the convention which is to take place. There will be agents, casting directors, managers, and all sorts of important people there. I will be auditioning, interviewing, and workshopping all week long. I started my training for it last weekend. There are 16 of us going together, representing Barbizon Midwest. Jason is the oldest. He's twenty-two years old. And Aimee is the youngest, she's only seven! Cutest little girl ever :)
I am so excited for this opportunity. It's going to be a blast I hope.

My mom recently broke up with her boyfriend of 12 years. It's been pretty rough for our family, but we're hanging on. With the help of our friends and family it's becoming easier and easier everyday.

I honestly don't know what else to put right now. I'll blog later this week hopefully :)

OH, I have band festival this weekend so anyone who knows where it is should definitely come and support the middle schools and high schools!

Thanks a lot :)
-MEEGS<3